No Thing to See Here

If you’ve landed on this page, there is a better than average chance you were looking for insights from the late Professor Michael Ruse.  I was a friend in distance to him, having shared the same name, and – for the most part – the same longing for finding the unanswerable.  My quest, unlike his, is non- academic, in the sense that he made a living out of it.  He was an author, lecturer, and grounded to the fundamental insights that come with a man of his ‘stature’. 

Me?  I’m just here.  I’m a lot of different things.  I do what I do because I’m lost at times.  Wait, before I continue, let me ease any sense you might be getting that I’m going to present myself as a chaser of the mystic.  I do no such thing.  I search for meaning in just about everything.  For me.  Not for ego; not for a pat on the back.  You see, I have but one mission in this poetic and maddening life.  To find the answer that no one, not even the greatest minds on earth, has been able to answer.  The question (in short):  Is there existence after "life"?  So, in essence it seems - that since we don’t have any scientific proof at all beyond the dimming of our neurons, we pick our poison while here, and try to find solitude and calming in a world packed with chaos, discontent, as well as beauty and wonder.  If you’re a healthy person, your view of the beauty and the chaos will be starkly different than someone who is wrestling with the question if they are quite ill or riddled with challenges that distort what it is we chase.  But what I try to do here on this page, is share my often quirky thoughts, for I am obsessed with the question, as so many others on earth now and in the past, and well into the future are.  There are subsets to the question as well, which is the question of purpose.  Then of course there is the question of consciousness.  These questions are often left to the professionals to deal with in the form of clergy, philosophers and that of physicists.  All entirely different animals.  Religion is the path that many people tip-toe on to find the answer if you’re blessed with faith.  If you don’t have faith, then you don’t have ‘your’ answer.  Philosophy is much the same – great overthinking and based on a desire for positive outcome.  That is….what feels good to us.  I encourage it all.  For physicists, it’s all about the peer review, the PHD and canonical rigor in terms of facts - more specifically - math. If you’re missing any one of those key ingredients, then you’re just being metaphorical.  For me, since I have no desire to chase a PHD down, I try to answer the question with what their hard work has provided on my own terms.  You really don’t need a PHD to think and calculate.   

In any event – most of my insatiable appetite in finding an answer in any form, is fueled by loss and sorrow.  If you’re planning on clicking through this page, and are too on a similar quest or question loss and why we are here – something in here may resonate.