Welcome all to my blended site of Consciousness & Physics.  This site is undergoing a very slow rebuild.  It's more a repository of shared hypothesis', devoid of any fun beyond mathematics and individual wonder.  My most recent is The Green M&M Paradox.  It’s playful and fun .  I’ve  recently published a book that encompasses many of the topics here into one, fluid read, titled The Odds Equation, and can be found on Kindle and Amazon.  The Kindle version is horrible.  It doesn't support latex mathematics, so the equations don't show up and spacing throughout are a mess.  I have the book posted here, however, without cost on the page titled "The Odds Equation Book".  Cut me some slack, it's my first one.  What is this book really about? There has never been a single book, lecture, podcast, or peer-reviewed paper (in philosophy, neuroscience, or physics) that seriously confronts the one question we all quietly carry: When the biology expires, what actually happens to the “you” that is experiencing this sentence right now? The Odds Equation does not dodge the question with hope, dogma, or dismissiveness. It attacks it with mathematics. Using only peer-reviewed physics (quantum information theory, statistical mechanics, computational complexity, and the hardest probability bounds we can derive), the book demonstrates that the emergence of a single, continuous, self-aware observer inside this universe is so fantastically improbable that it constitutes a formal anomaly in our current models of reality.  Not a small anomaly; an anomaly measured in hundreds of orders of magnitude beyond the Planck scale, beyond a googol standard deviations, beyond anything else physics has ever encountered and simply shrugged off. This is not metaphysical. It is measurement.  And measurement at this level demands exploration and explanation.  The Odds Equation is therefore not a fairy tale offered to just simply comfort you. It is the moment the fairy tale looks back and realizes it is alive, and that the story was never about the universe. The story was always about all of us. Welcome to the anomaly. We are it. And
*that*should comfort you.  

​But if you don't feel like reading an entire book, I'm hopeful that if any of these fields interest you, you'll likely find something here that resonates. Eye popping facts and wonder?  Stop reading this and just tap/click menus, then Musings and Prose - at the top, Of All the Gin Joints; There's You....a metaphorical journey of the odds of your existence and why it really really should mean something to you.  Which then will lead to a falsifiable model for consciousness found in the post Conscious Emergence Improbability Argument.

No existence after death?  I beg to differ, sort of:  The Resonance Trail - a 6 Sectored investigation outlining the known science that shows awareness does not end with our last breath.  It’s not Heaven, but it might be a Stairway.  Not a quick read either - but thorough and condensed as I could be.  If you're interested in life after death studies - either for yourself or for those we grieve - this is the one if you read anything at all on here.  

Physics and Consciousness: You'll notice "resonance" is a common theme in my theoretical work.  Since I have published hypothesis' in here, I must state that I am an "independent researcher/construct" - if one needs to apply a label to me.  I have no ties to any brand of thought. I am not funded, nor am I tenured. What this means is I am open to anything.  Some are museum pieces, but many have potential - and danger - as noted in my idea of Emotional Mapping, and found in the menu.  Interested in mental health?  That's the one to check out.  

If up to it, I invite anyone to peruse my physics papers listed in this terrible web host (Weebly). The most important of them, so far, is an embedded PDF under My Own Theory of "Everything".  The Theory of Everything has several names in the field of physics - in short, it is a theoretical framework of physics that should explain and link together all aspects of the universe.  I always include a 'Plain English' summation after each one if you're interested in physics but don't necessarily need to understand what the eloquent equations mean.  Mine is merely a contribution to the Theory of Everything.  

Basically, you've stumbled onto a page that is a repository of hypothesis', created by an amateur physicist with intuitive ideas, fueled by the fact I am living an existence that some people say extinguishes when my biological body fizzles out.  I'm not totally convinced that is true - hence, I follow the science where the reductionists don't bother with.  
​Feel free to critique anything I have on here.  


*NOTE* Update of Theory of Everything Version 2 - Plain English:

By Michael J. Ruse
 
For most of my life, without knowing the language for it, I’ve been chasing a single question:
Why does anything remember anything?  Which then would lead me to – ‘Why does a photon know where it’s going’?  Or then…..why does a wave collapse at one moment and not another?  Why does spacetime “keep” the fact that a black hole merged, or that two masses accelerated apart?  Okay, so that is more than a single question, but it all falls under one umbrella.   

This question followed me through childhood, a long steady career, loss, grief, physics books, YouTube rabbit holes, and conversations with my own memories. Over the years it grew into a suspicion:  Maybe the universe keeps traces of everything that happens - not in the form of symbols, but physically.

At first I didn’t know what to do with that intuition.  But I started writing.  When I really buckled down with it, it was during a time of great personal loss for me, but that was the fuel I needed to press ahead.  Little ideas became papers:

• The Topological Resonance Hypothesis:  spacetime might hold long-lived imprints.
• The Fractal Vacuum Resonance Hypothesis: the vacuum might be structured, not empty.
• The Threshold Information Loss Hypothesis: collapse might have a real physical trigger.
• The Resonant Time Field Hypothesis: time might have a field structure.
 
One paper became four.  Four became six.  Eventually I realized these weren’t separate ideas - they were mere chapters of the same story, and that I should unify them.  So I combined the ones that mattered most, into a unified model:  Threshold Collapse, Inertial Modulation, and Spacetime Memory (TOE V1).

It worked - but I knew in my heart something was missing.  I wasn’t sure if I would ever find the missing piece that would make my humble contribution to a TOE more solid, because I didn’t know what to look for that could be missing.  I doubted myself many many times, because physics - it seems to me - can at times be a voraciously hungry beast with an army of soldiers just salivating to rip your ideas to shreds.  My TOE V1 was innovative, at least to me, but I wasn’t fooling myself either, despite the feeling I had that it was decent, even though it teetered on the meta end of things. 

Then I stumbled upon the work of mathematician D.L. Bernstein on existence and PDE behavior.  I purchased an old book of hers on eBay for $20 on Theorems for Existence and became immersed.  This solved a problem I didn’t know I had:  My equations needed hard mathematical guarantees.  They needed to be well-posed.  They needed to have unique solutions.  They needed to collapse cleanly under certain conditions and remain stable under others.  Bernstein’s work - along with Kenig–Merle threshold theory - gave me the missing formal structure.  The collapse line could now be mathematically proven in the way physicists demand and Version 2 was born.  Took a lot of time and heart for a guy like me to square the edges. 
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But I know that when people who aren’t mathematically inclined do actually read a hypothesis, it usually gives a reader more questions than answers, and ending with clicking X to close it out.  Maybe you’re asking yourself, just what is it, I’m trying to do?

What the Theory Is Really Saying:

​At its heart, TOE Version 2 claims five things:
1. Collapse isn’t random.  It’s triggered when a quantum system loses too much information into its environment - an entropy threshold.
2. The vacuum isn’t empty.  It has layers of resonant structure that shape inertia and particle identity.
3. Spacetime itself can ‘remember’.  Major events leave persistent topological “dents” - like gravitational memory, but more general.
4. When something big happens, the whole vacuum reacts.  Super-threshold events create global information cascades.
5. All of this can be tested.  With:
• atomic interferometers
• Casimir measurements
• GPS timing anomalies
• lunar seismology
• vacuum noise statistics
• gravitational memory signatures
 
A theory is only valuable if it can be wrong.  This one can be.  Version 1 was already “falsifiable.”  But Version 2 has mathematics that serve like the I-beams on a bridge. 
 
Why Version 2 Matters
Version 1 was intuitive.  Version 2 is mathematically defensible.  It uses:
• linear & nonlinear Klein–Gordon dynamics
• stable/unstable threshold bifurcations
• Kenig–Merle critical energy theory
• deviation fields for spacetime strain
• existence and uniqueness results
• explicit predictions
 
It’s not “Mike’s cool idea.”  It’s: my attempt to create a well-posed, PDE-grounded, physics-anchored attempt at a unifying mechanism behind collapse, inertia, resonance, and spacetime memory.  This theory isn’t trying to “win physics.”  It’s trying to answer a deeper question:  How does something as fragile and temporary as a human life leave an imprint on a universe made of cold equations?  And the hypothesis I’ve been building - piece by piece, across years of writing, grief, curiosity, and intuition - is this:  Because the universe is made of memory.  Because collapse is a memory decision.  Because spacetime is a memory field.  Because the vacuum resonates with the echoes of everything that ever happened.
If that’s true, then consciousness isn’t an accident, it’s a resonance pattern in a field that already knows how to hold history.  Version 2 is the most complete attempt I’ve ever made to explain that.  It's something, not nothing.  

The Hucksters of Science: A Field Guide to the Digital Merchants of “Truth”
 
“The greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance—it is the illusion of knowledge.”
—Stephen Hawking
  
Spend a few minutes scrolling your social media feeds, and you’ll see it: A parade of modern sages, each promising the keys to the universe.  Every era has its hustlers. Today, ours have swapped the traveling wagon for a Facebook ad and the tonic bottle for a pixelated Zoom call.
 
Scroll your feed for five minutes, and you’ll find them via a 'sponsored ad': modern mystics, secret science whisperers, and “law of attraction” coaches rewrapping old faith-based certainties in shiny new packaging.  They’ll promise you wealth, reunion with the dead, secret universal truths, and limitless consciousness - all in a free webinar that segues, inevitably, into a paid upsell.
 
Some drape themselves in cosmic jargon.  Others lean on institutional prestige.
A few do both, with promises of clarity and hyper awareness.  But the journey they sell isn't to really make you feel better, it's to line their wallets and squeak out a living pretending they know more than you do.  In an age flooded with information, the real scarcity is humble uncertainty - the courage to admit what nobody fully knows.  Instead, we get manufactured certainty - packaged, monetized, and algorithmically targeted.
 
If you’re here because something about the idea of resonance - of the universe as more than a sterile mechanism - feels intuitively real, you’ve come to the right place.  But let’s be clear about the difference.  I’m not standing on a soundstage, wearing a headpiece microphone, screeching about the “secret” I discovered one evening during an existential moment.  I’m not selling a course that guarantees enlightenment if you sign up before midnight.  I’m not even promising I’m right.
 
All I’m offering is a process - a way of thinking through these questions carefully, transparently, and without pretending the evidence says more than it does.  I am merely sharing my own intuitive ideas, tied to science, and presented. You either jive with it or you don’t.  But to my defense, my physics papers are absolutely not fluffy foo foo; they are most definitively falsifiable.
 
If you read any of what I’ve put together - like the Resonance Trail or the Odds Equation - you’ll see much of it builds directly on what the gatekeepers themselves have blessed. Certainly all of my physics papers follow that incorporation.  I’ve just followed the threads a little further into the dark, past where the consensus narrative usually stops. 
 
I will never claim certainty and I won’t tell you this is the final word.  I won’t even say it’s free - because “free” suggests I think awareness and abundance are products I have the right to price.
 
Some questions - about why we’re here, what consciousness is, or whether anything persists after death - are too meaningful and mysterious to convert into a checkout page.  All I can do is share what I’ve found, honestly, and hope it helps you assemble your own piece of the puzzle.  I may be a random nobody to most, but I can promise you this – everything I’ve published comes with zero angle.  I can’t imagine how ridiculous I would feel standing before people exploiting them for money like I’m some sort of authority.  There are literally thousands of persons, like yourself, like me – pondering, searching, hoping.  There isn’t a single one person though, on the entire planet - that has the definitive answer we seek.  I certainly don’t, but for me, the things I tear down and dissect to rebuild, allows me to move through this marvelously crazy life with a better understanding – albeit still mysterious – of the incredible architecture of how things work. 
 
If nothing else, it’s proof that you don’t need to be credentialed, anointed, or algorithmically amplified to be allowed to think and speculate.  And you certainly don’t need to pay someone either.

Let’s tour this strange bazaar of belief:
 
1. The Mystics and their Dopamine Hits:
 
Open Instagram or Facebook, and you’ll find them:
• Ads for “AI-powered ancestral communication.”
• Videos promising “quantum resonance activations.”
• Invitations to free webinars that end in a predictable upsell.
 
Consider The Shift Network, a platform marketing “multidimensional awakening” courses. Or Humanity’s Team, offering paid summits on how quantum physics proves you are already immortal.  Want to know how to think and speak and live like Leonardo DaVinci?  Well, Michael Gelb will show you how.  He's got a sale going right now if you act fast.  
 
How it works:
1. Invent a vocabulary blending science and spirituality - “quantum,” “resonance,” “vibration.”  Fringe speculation dressed up in the language of quantum physics. 
2. Frame confusion as evidence you need their help.
3. Offer limited-time access – one you sign up for a free email that later requires your payment details.
4. Promise privileged access to insights no one else can see.  ‘Give me money; I’ll give you everlasting knowledge’. 
 
The psychological hook is obvious:
If reality feels uncertain or disappointing, these offerings deliver a neatly packaged narrative - meaning on demand.
 
 
Example:
• Gregg Braden blends geology with unverifiable claims about hidden codes in DNA.¹
• Nassim Haramein asserts that black holes exist inside subatomic particles - a claim unsupported by credible peer review.²

Maybe it's true, I don't know; I'll listen to anyone's ideas.  But if you haven't put an ounce of effort into actually getting your hands dirty to figure to figure it out - and instead just wave your hands around and pretend you know more than anyone else, well - that's where you lose even me.  But, the grift apparently succeeds.  And why?  Because everyone is searching for meaning, and these offers deliver a convenient narrative - instant transcendence, no uncertainty required.
 
Here’s a few other examples that routinely come across my personal feeds:
 
Dr. Joe Vitale and the "Law of Attraction"
 
“How long does it take to attract something?” the ad asks. The answer, naturally, is always just a little longer - and requires one more course, one more coaching session.
 
The Law of Attraction is the ultimate non-falsifiable promise:
• If it doesn’t work, you didn’t believe hard enough.
• If you question it, you’re blocking the abundance.
• If you run out of money, you can always manifest more.
 
PragerU’s “How Did the Universe Begin?”
 
This one has an entire all you can eat whole buffet:
• Aliens? Yup.
• The multiverse?  Check.
• God?  Of course.
• Simplistic roadmap (just learn this, and poof—enlightenment).
 
No need to pick a worldview when you can just swirl them all together into a cosmic smoothie that promises answers - but never delivers anything but clicks and ad revenue.  The through-line in all of these? Recycled faith-based promises of “do this, get that.”
It’s the same model that sold medieval relics and 20th-century diet pills:  First, declare a problem you didn’t know you had.  Then, offer a miraculous fix - and sell it as urgent, exclusive, and secret.  So, if anyone needs a reminder:  If someone promises certainty about the mysteries of life, the universe, and everything - for the low price of your attention, your money, or your credulity - be skeptical.  There are no shortcuts to meaning.  And the people claiming to have them are usually the ones who benefit most from your search.
  
2. The Credentialed Gatekeepers
“It’s easy to be a science communicator when you never communicate uncertainty.”
 
At first glance, these figures appear to be the antidote to pseudoscience.  After all, they have credentials, TV specials, popular bought/paid for media accounts, and, of course - they have bestselling books.

But if you look closer, you'll see many have simply packaged orthodoxy (Accepted theories….like the Big Bang for example) as a product of their own. 
 
Examples:
• Neil deGrasse Tyson - whose media persona depends on crisp soundbites, not nuanced debate.
• Bill Nye - who shifted from children’s programming to adult pop-science punditry, rarely updating the tone.  
• Brian Cox - the BBC’s philosopher-physicist, who can be relied upon to restate consensus in soft lighting and warm smiles.
 
Their offer:
• The reassurance that science has nearly everything figured out. 
• The promise that your confusion ends where their authority begins.
 
The unspoken contract:
• They avoid speculations that might alienate institutions.  Places like Harvard and MIT. 
• They rarely acknowledge the deep uncertainties about consciousness or cosmology.  Their hands do the talking, as they babble oft-repeated physics fun or some cosmic discovery that teams of working cosmologists have discovered – as if they had a hand in it.  Yawn. 
• They position dissent as unserious or fringe.  That's when I'm out.   
 
When Tyson declares philosophy obsolete,³ or Cox dismisses the study of consciousness as trivial,⁴ they’re not simply educating - they’re enforcing the boundaries of acceptable curiosity.
 
3. The Quiet Outsiders
 
“Consensus is frequently late to the truth.”
 
If the loudest voices are either the mystics selling secret shortcuts or the credentialed communicators reciting consensus, there remains a third group - smaller, often ignored.
 
These are the ones without a marketing funnel.  Without a branded media persona.
Sometimes with credentials, sometimes without.  What they share isn’t just skepticism of the mainstream.  It’s an unwillingness to outsource their curiosity.  These are the folks who are not promising you cosmic certainty for $199.  They are not begging for your trust because of the letters after their names.  They are simply saying: maybe there is something real here, and maybe you should look for yourself.  This is where the better truths often live: in the spaces between the canned certainties of institutions and the convenient miracles of pop mysticism. These outsiders - some credentialed, some not - ask questions that reductionism can’t fully answer, such as why do probabilities so vast that they defy comprehension, yet still manifest as our lived experience?  Or, why does the intuition of consciousness as something non-trivial keep returning in every culture, every era?  How about: why does reality, under close inspection, resemble a resonance field more than a simple mechanistic clock?  These are the ones who:
• Develop probabilistic models – things like the Odds Equation - that reductionists would likely laugh at and ignore.
• Chase hypotheses that mainstream journals won’t consider.
• Refuse to abandon curiosity in the face of eye-rolls and ridicule.
 
But this dismissal isn’t proof of emptiness.  It’s proof that the boundaries of accepted inquiry are enforced by the same groupthink the gatekeepers pretend to despise in religion.
Check out some papers on arXiv.org.  You will often see quiet outsiders doing something different: They work without a guaranteed audience...they publish without guaranteed validation...they think without permission.
 
And while not every maverick and/or mad scientist is right, every real advance - scientific, philosophical, existential - has come from precisely this posture: the willingness to risk looking foolish in order to say something true.
 
So if you find yourself here - on the margins - don’t be quick to trade your convictions for applause.  Better to stand outside the club and follow your own trail of evidence than to be celebrated for repeating ideas that no longer satisfy.
 
Historical parallels abound:
 
For every credentialed figure who has spent a career defending the boundaries of what’s “serious,” there are countless examples of thinkers who were ignored, ridiculed, or erased - simply because they didn’t fit the mold.  Some lacked degrees.  Some had credentials but dared to challenge the consensus.  All were inconvenient reminders that truth rarely emerges fully dressed in institutional approval.
 
Consider these cases:
 
Albert Einstein
In 1905, while working as a patent clerk, Einstein published the special theory of relativity - including the famous equation E = mc².  He hadn’t yet earned his doctorate.
He held no faculty appointment.  He was dismissed by many as an amateur tinkerer with impractical ideas.
 
Gregor Mendel
An Augustinian monk, Mendel quietly bred pea plants and discovered the laws of inheritance.  His findings were ignored for 35 years, until other scientists independently confirmed them.  Today, he’s called the father of genetics.
 
Ignaz Semmelweis
Semmelweis proved that simple handwashing could prevent deadly infections in maternity wards.  His colleagues were so offended they ostracized him.
He died in an asylum, his work vindicated only decades later.
 
Alfred Wegener
Wegener, a meteorologist - not a geologist - proposed continental drift.
He was scorned as a dilettante and dragged relentlessly.  Half a century later, his idea became the foundation of plate tectonics.
 
Barbara McClintock
Her discovery of “jumping genes” was treated as fringe speculation.
She eventually stopped publishing out of frustration.
Thirty years later, she won the Nobel Prize.
 
Srinivasa Ramanujan
A self-taught Indian mathematician, Ramanujan mailed his theorems to Cambridge scholars.  At first, they doubted his legitimacy.  Then they realized he’d independently derived results that would shape modern mathematics.
 
Mary Anning
A working-class woman with no formal education, Anning unearthed fossils that rewrote natural history.  Her discoveries were often credited to male scientists.  Only in recent decades has she received proper recognition.

Nikola Tesla
While Tesla trained as an engineer, much of his work was conducted outside academic circles.  He was derided for pursuing wireless energy transmission.  His “impractical” ideas laid the groundwork for the electrical infrastructure we now take for granted.
 
These stories are not nostalgic trivia.  They are a living rebuke to both extremes of the modern marketplace of certainty:
• To the credentialed gatekeepers, they say:  Be careful dismissing unconventional inquiry - history shows you will often be wrong.
• To the pseudoscientific marketers, they say:  Genuine discovery doesn’t need a webinar funnel. It doesn’t shout about hidden secrets to drive conversions. It speaks in the quiet language of evidence and persistence.
 
The paradox is simple:  Real breakthroughs often emerge where neither the orthodox nor the opportunistic are willing to look.  They come from thinkers who:
• Had no guarantee of acceptance.
• Had no ready-made audience.
• Had no incentive except curiosity itself.
 
So if you ever wonder whether you are wasting your time pursuing an idea no one takes seriously, remember this:
 
Consensus is a lagging indicator. It always arrives late to the truth.
 
If you’re reading this, you’re likely not trying to build a brand or defend an orthodoxy.  You’re just searching. Your curiosity is the commodity these groups trade in:
• The mystics want you to buy the promise.
• The celebrities want you to buy the orthodoxy.
• The outsiders ask you to consider that neither is complete.
 
The next time someone offers you prepackaged certainty either in book form or a $49 webinar - whether wrapped in sacred geometry or presented by a smiling hack in a white coat - pause and consider:
• Is your confusion being exploited?
• Is your wonder being flattened into ideology?
• Is your trust being traded for profit or status?

Real understanding takes patience, humility, and the willingness to say: “I don’t know—and maybe no one does.” 
 
My Note for the Sincere Searchers
 
If you’re reading this, there’s a good chance you’re simply trying to understand your place in a complicated universe.  You are the real target market - because your longing to know is the commodity all these players trade in.  The mystic entrepreneur wants you to buy the promise.  The celebrity scientist wants you to buy the orthodoxy.  The outsider (me) asks you to consider that maybe neither side has it fully right.  Unfortunately, there are no shortcuts to meaning.  Certainty is cheap because it is easy to manufacture.  Skepticism is essential - but it should be applied in all directions, including toward the people telling you skepticism has an endpoint.

There will always be salesmen eager to hand you certainty in a box - sometimes spiritual, sometimes scientific.  The antidote is not to retreat into cynicism, but to keep your curiosity intact even when it makes you uncomfortable.
 
References
 
¹ Gregg Braden, The God Code (Hay House, 2004).
² For critical analysis of Haramein’s physics, see: https://www.physicsforums.com/threads/nassim-haramein.49417/
³ Neil deGrasse Tyson, “Philosophy is a Waste of Time,” Big Think: https://bigthink.com/videos/neil-degrasse-tyson-philosophy-is-a-waste-of-time/
⁴ Brian Cox on The Infinite Monkey Cage (BBC Radio), describing consciousness as an “emergent epiphenomenon.”